acts of war....

... since everyone must've heard about the terrible news of the plane hijacking by now, shi won't repeat it.

Morbid thoughts:

1) It's easier to cope with something this horrendous by armoring own mind with black humour.
2) Bush's speech time changed from 9pm to 8:30pm - shi's reaction: "... well, someone must have done the speech drafting sooner than expected."
3) Watching the buildings collapse. "The last time I saw anything like this was the special effects in the X-files movie. Only this is real."

.... such a waste of life.
Shi doesn't mean to sound fugen-ish about it, but if fanatics are willing to die for their country, shi'd say let them have the right to.
Only don't drag anyone else not so minded along with them.
It's one thing to be willing to die, and it's another to take ppl with you who are NOT willing to die.
*sigh*

another thing - this brings out the roushi in shi.
Shi's always thought he's escapist in constant sleep.
So, shi's escaping through art.
When stressed, shi does art. It helps. Some.
This is the first time shi's managed to done credible roushi without any references what so ever.

I'm awake already! *@@ at kitty clawing way up lap*

Mind is ... numb. Really wish it didn't happen - that it's all a bad dream when shi wakes up.
Like how shi felt when grandma died. It's ... unreal. Can't be happening ...
Want to crawl away and hide. And ignore it all.
Which brought this pic out.

"Don't bother me. Go away. I'm going to sleep [for a thousand years, provided that I'm NOT disturbed. >.>]."


Shi doesn't like violence.
Shi only wants to be left alone in peace.
But ... it won't go away. Shi wants to do something about it, but don't know what.
Probably something like donating blood. If they'll take it. Meanwhile, just want to reassure and talk to as many friends affected by possible that shi's here to listen if they want to pour it out.