What's the point?

I wonder why I bother.
Why I bother helping an ungrateful little sister with her homework when she asks.
Why I bother doing HER share of work when she's got a busy assignment due.
Why I bother letting HER have the computer when it's her own fault that she didn't use it earlier to do her online assignment.

Sure, she does me some favours.
Sure, she covers for me SOME of the time.
But it's not feeling like it's worth it.

I have my own life. I have a milliion things I want to do but I haven't got around to doing them, and SHE wants me to be more involved with what she's doing which I don't give a crap about NOR do I wish to add to.

She accuses me of acting childish one second, and the next whines to me for help because of whatever mess she got herself tangled up with the computer or whatever homework she doesn't understand.

We argue, then she leaves in a huff to go and take her frustrations out ON MY PLAYSTATION GAMES by playing it.
And using my strategy guide.
And because she's too darn busy to read the thing by herself she makes ME Read it and giver her directions when she's lost in the frick'n Hofmann Ruins. (and yes, it's probably misspelt)

I used to leave all that stuff for her to read and use at her convenience, and now I'm wondering why I bother. Like why I bother letting her have access to my CDs. ("Oh, but it's not like you ever LISTEN to them any more!")

So?
Whose sensitivity is it that I CANNOT listen to my own CDs when she's around or at bedtime because the least little sound and light affects HER beauty sleep?!

And if she comes late to bed, I'm supposed to put up with HER turning the room lights on to find whatever the hell it is that's necessary for her before she settles in for bed!

If I forget something, if I'm lazy and slack of, I'm lectured by my parents cuz I SHOULD BE MORE RESPONSIBLE.
If she does, it's my fault for not reminding her.

I'm supposed to do more cuz I'm the reliable one.

FUCK that.
I just don't care any more.
I don't even WANT to.

I don't even care if she reads this - it's how I feel and she can deal with it by herself.
I'm not even going to bother talking to her at all if I can help it.
I'm childish? FINE. I'll be that way.
I don't WANT her approval or respect.
I don't care if all she makes is sarcastic remarks whenever /I/ try to share something IMPORTANT to me with her.
SHE always has time to force HER crap down my throat but she doesn't give a shit on WHAT I LIKE and want to share with her.
If I try pointing that out, she just trots out the same spiel about how she have more to show than I do. (ie homepage, internet circle friends, cgs, etcetc)
Well, WHO has more time on the comp and LESS responsibilities?

Either that, or start picking on my pronunciation AND grammar in english because I'm too angry to say it properly.

That was NEVER the point.

And throw in little digs where it hurts the most.
I'm supposed to be SENSITIVE and caring of her feelings and not mention stuff that would hurt HER but obviously that doesn't go the other way.

I've just HAD it.
I'm SICK of picking up after her without much thankyous or whatnot. I'm SICK of feeding her because her lazy ass is glued in the comp chair and she doesn't feel like getting it.
I'm SICK of letting her free range with all my stuff when I so much as TOUCH her backpack I get yelled at.

From now on, I'm on my own and SHE's on her own.

Btw to anyone else reading this - modem's been fixed and I'm fine now. Altho connection is still evil sometimes and loses itself periodically.
I'll be on.
When I can.